Well, it is now Thursday, and I have had more time (roughly 25.5 hours) to think about things. I am still very happy for Monday, and have realized that I know enough about her now to not worry about "Zelda-the-emotional-investment" but now can think of her as an actual real person. Which is, of course, a significantly better situation. Also I think that she would make an excellent friend. Platonically. Of course, having already invested so much energy in this towards a romantic end, I still hope for that. But I can't help but remember the attraction I had for Alice back in the beginning. Not that it's entirely gone, but she is more of a friend than girl-interest. Recently lack of communication has been pushing us towards the "acquaintance" level, but I am still glad to know her. And she isn't even of my caste!

Oh, right. Back up a tad. Caste. Yeah, I know it might be a picky word. More personality type than anything social or genetic (though all three are most likely linked fairly closely). Perhaps a good, quick way to say it is that anyone ought to recognize another of the same caste as "their kind of people". Alice was close; perhaps one or two levels "below". So far, Zelda is definitely here. I'd say without hesitation that she is absolutely no lower than one below me, and very likely in the same. Maybe even above. "Level" in this case not necessarily being superior-inferior organized, but a measure of "differentness" from the general public. That is, MY kind of differentness (which I suppose at first glance would imply that it's impossible to be a higher level than Kevin, if he is the basis; but I supply only the reference point for direction, not magnitude).

In fact, other girls I've spoken with about various philosophies have merely followed along my own threads of thought. Zelda has not only traversed them herself (to an extent) but actually LED me a bit while we were talking! If nothing else she (as a friend) will provide excellent stimulation of thought. Really the only other person I know who does that well is my friend from [junior and senior] high school. Also, incidentally, of very similar caste. Close enough to be "identical" by all external appearances, though from my point of view I can see that he's a little over to the side. Hehe. Isn't it great that the human mind can operate in an entirely fabricated metaphor space?

Speaking of castes, didn't the Kama Sutra have something to say about castes and acceptable unions? I forget, now. I will check. Ah, that Kama Sutra. Funny stuff. I wonder how many people of my generation (or merely proximate) have actually read the whole thing - not just the famous second part.

Hm. Gotta stick to the virgins (or, at least, those that were virgins when YOU first happened by) in your own caste, and the lower castes. And, of course, all of the special instances in which you can violate someone's marriage are listed. Also of note: a woman that has been "turned out of caste" is "not to be enjoyed". Ha, ha; "enjoyed". So frank, those Indians. I suppose you have to give them credit for at least being honest about casual sex.

I have been checking my website's guestbook periodically this summer. No new entries since oh-so long ago. It is a little disappointing, but since I don't sign guestbooks very often myself, I shouldn't complain. It would be nice to get some feedback from friends or acquaintances that read this stuff. Other than the immediate stuff - that is, in my guestbook or (more preferably, I suppose) in an e-mail. Sigh. I guess that is the drawback of immediate communication; it lessens the usage of the more reaching (send mail, leave message, etc.) kind. And, at the same time, I suppose, raises its (reaching's) value - and not only through the supply/demand function.

I think I will go see about separating the legal-move check in Royalty.

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