Dammit, why?
I want to know what's wrong with me. Today I bought Zelda a dozen roses - the original "plan" was to get her thirteen, present her with one, and as an "apology" for my forwardness with it, present her with another dozen. Well, I only bought a dozen, due to financial constraints (I already shouldn't be spending what I did). But later today as I went about doing whatnot, I found myself wondering what I would do with the roses if I didn't end up going to Lincoln tomorrow. I then started chiding myself for thinking pessimistically - it is positive thinking I want, yes? Particularly since (though perhaps not in this specific instance) self-fulfilling prophecy is very real. What did I think then? I'm think, "Ok, think positively. Be optimistic." And then, in a very violent mental interruption, "No, it will hurt."
No!
What is wrong with me?