Hello, again. Weekend, here. Saturday. I called the zoo this morning to find out what their hours and prices were, and then Zelda to see if she wanted to go. She is doing something, of course. I asked if she were really interested in doing something with me, and she said she was. That helped a little, but I still am very disappointed. I thought about asking if she would make our date a priority when she scheduled things, but I didn't want to sound demanding - I already think I started to sound a little desperate. Ah, well. This morning I went for a walk. I got a good seven hours of sleep last night, and I think my mind is clearing now. I don't feel the pain, so much, when I think of her anymore. Which is good. I think my mind is starting to section her off into some past memory better left forgotten. Or at least Friday's memory, which was the major cause of pain. My world model is beginning to accept as more likely that we are having genuinely difficult scheduling problems, and that she is not interested enough in a date to help set one up. Which I suppose is painful at a level, but, as I've said, I'm starting to learn to ignore it.

There will be others, I suppose.

On another note, I'm moving my ideas with respect to AI again. I've been walking again, and happily Zelda comprises only about 35% of my thoughts thereabouts. Though I have discovered a few rather disheartening things, I have also begun to compose workarounds. The next 340 years will certainly be something.

Ta ta. I'm off to walk, again.

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